Achievements

In the context of achievements:

when you have found a million people better than you,
and another million worst than you,
don't forget the other billions of people just like you.

What are you thinking??

Shit happens.
You know you've messed it up.
It's even more stupid to do it again.
Wasting your chances,
it isn't gonna do you good.

Glorious Friend

Who would've ever thought
We started off
Being nice
Maybe just pretending
.

All this while
What is worth between us
Shall be treasured
Or simply be dust-off forever
But remember
I cherished this since the beginning of time
.

Waking up
Mending what's lost
Is not an excuse
.

Forgive this humbleness appearance
For this shy body has never dared face her fears
Even herself
.

Because I'm still without an explanation for you...
.

Dream Universe

I prefer living in my own fantasy world. Here, nothing is impossible and everything is possible. In here, you don't have to worry about any thing because everything is under your control. What you want to do and what you don't want to do, it's ALL up to us to say. One's fantasy can be an eternal one. But hold on. Wouldn't it be boring eventually? What are you going to do after that? OK, let's say it's not eternal. Hey, it's still life. So, in a period of time, we can do anything to everything we want with it. And when time is up, we'll be much contented and satisfied, and moreover achieved our dreams. So why make men live so miserably? Can't we live happily ever after? Life can have a happily ever after ending. Because it is a special one.

Then what's life without any law and order? Has to be reasonable of course. Every functional body of life has it's own way organization and rules.

Is reality actually another person's fantasy? Because it's surely not mine. It's so freaking messed up. Where is that order and peace? Why should it be camouflaged in this chaos? Why does he(man) makes it so difficult? Is that the reason of life? Going through difficulties is the meaning of life? What kind of meaning is this?

Graffiti

I just love Graffiti arts. I don't know when I've started to fall in love with them. They're just so cool! So rich and full of colours. It's like how one admires Leonardo's or Picasso's paintings . Their meanings are fully engraved in it.

A little too much cream. where's the crust?

The world is filled with devils and look like us. 

I am too naive to think that the world is just filled with angels and saints. Everybody is "suppose" to be generous, kind, gentle, well-mannered and honest, but they are not! Because they are not as what you think they should be. Almost everyone is a selfless-selfish bugger. 

Maybe that's nature's rule - the fittest survives. To protect themselves, they put on a cloak with all sorts of abilities. Goodie-two-shoes ain't gonna work. If you don't wear that armour, you'll just get beaten or eaten. We all have that sword to protect us. We use it all the time, sometimes sub-consciously too.

So, here I am trying to be more crusted. And maybe inject myself with some devil's poison and end-up being just like them. No, I'm just kidding. I will be me but stronger, better and faster.

Don't take for granted people, it's a rough world out there.

The Breadcrumb Story

What seemed to be a child's play
Has now become a serious game show
At first it sounded gay
But I decided to hang my halo

The nights were long and mornings were clouded by rain
The days drifted by swiftly
But the smiles never dimmed
Where do I begin?


Every morning,
you were the first thing that floods my memory
completing my unfinished dream
you're my morning coffee
that jump starts my days


No one believed it possible
Because they knew more than me and played on 
Though I secretly knew it
I thank them for looking out for me
But all I saw was only you
You made my bones weak my muscles numb
My heart like a glowing lighthouse in the middle of the sea
And it still does...


I was too in doubt at first
But slowly I saw a future
One that's worth living for
It did not need explanations
Because it was an unconditional love...


I should have explained earlier
But you made me speechless all the time...

Do you know,
What it's like to be crying without tears?
Because you aren't allowed to cry it out not even silently

And you're told not to love even for being in love for the first time

So writing this may be a substitute for those useless tears.

This feeling is so painful because you know it was your own fault

Your heart is aching with sadness
like someone stabbing mercilessly
But all you feel is numbness
Because there's nothing you can do.

Knowing if you let it go now
You'll never have it back again
Even you've meant it forever and so have I,
it turns out as lies eventually
because words aren't as heavy as reality.

I'll blame no one for this but myself
I deserved it for not loving you enough
I was at fault for treating you like crap
And hence the gap.

I'm not asking for forgiveness
because I don't deserve you.

Thank you for everything.

PS: Bien sur, I still believe that only unconditional love will last forever.

Daily blog #3

What an achievement for me. Finally I'm able to sing while strumming my guitar at the same time! I've been trying to do this for ages! I was playing and giving it a go for Dido's Closer song, and then *poof!* There I was, doing it! I guess my brain coordination for singing and playing the guitar was asleep all these while. Sometimes you just gotta give it a little shake and then it'll start rolling on.

I've been playing some of James Blunt's songs, which I find the chords fairly easy to play. Nonetheless, the singing part was quite challenging. I like the way Dido sings too.

Daily blog #2

I'm a scientist by day, an artist by night! ;) I speak the Language of the World.

This book by Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist, really gives me inspiration to follow my Dreams. Just hope it's easier said then done.

Daily blog #1

Never repeat the same mistake again. AND ESPECIALLY IF YOU KNOW WHAT THE RESULTS WOULD BE!! Because that's just plain stupid...